In a contemplative mood

Hello again...

Days are passing fast when you are busy. And even if you're not, time is mostly too short. My last days have been marked by various difficulties: no money (which fortunately has changed now, I got my study grants from Vienna for this month), chaos&disorder at university and a mind full of weird thoughts that sometimes make me hate myself.
Actually some things are going very well here - my flatmates Gerry&Simona are really super nice! We have already been out together twice and they are always helpful if I have questions, e.g.: about the cheapest supermarket here or buses or pasticceria or pizzeria - they know it all!

Nevertheless, the thing that freaks me out the most is this madhouse they call a university here - no one can really tell me which courses I can take or not. And funnily enough, 99% of the language courses are being taught in Italian which sounds kinda insane to me! They want you to learn French and English by talking about it in Italian!? How weird is that? Up to now I have only found one French course which is actually taught in French and which seems of a acceptable standard...
To solve the problem of my other courses I complained via Email to a French lector who fortunately has decided to help me with setting up the rest of my study plan.
For my missing English course, I will do one on American Literature with a nice professor to whom I talked today...we'll see...he told me it'll be easy for me...no pain, much gain!

However, behind all this academic mess Im generally pretty weird these days. Im in a new city, a very interesting one, but I feel a bit lost. Im not in the mood for going out or even exploring the town. I spend most of my days in my room on the internet, like a fuckin nerd, wasting time while outside life is rushing past me. I still feel a bit disconnected with all the stuff around me and I have no idea how to change this. I ask myself if this is going to change soon or if it's me who needs to make an effort to get into this semester abroad!?
It seems like Im in a strange period of my life, a phase full of questions to which I haven't found any answers yet. Maybe everyone is going through something like this at some point in life, but I guess it's the way we cope with it that makes us see through the spiderweb of insecurities and uncertainties....Im getting way too philosophical here...yuck!

Anyway, so much from me for today...pics will be added soon...in the meanwhile I advise you to read more Hunter S. Thompson and learn how to cook because this might be useful somewhere down the road.

Saluti dall'Italia